hello, june

hey... it's late right now.

so often i find myself aware of a very chaotic mix inside my head--a loud and complicated mix of boredom, fomo, anxiety, restlessness, depression, etc. lately it's gotten to the point where it's irritating to even put up with... i have a lot of important emotional and psychological skills that i've worked very hard to develop and help myself with and sometimes those things work. every day i aim to be as present as possible—

i can't change the past,

i can be present,

i can be open to the future.

i get scared of and hopeful for the future, i get bittersweet thinking about the past, i feel grateful for the present moment. even now, im grateful for the calm i have right now... safe and comfortable in my bed next to my partner, getting high and writing and sharing my thoughts...

i haven't written anything like this in a while. i know i need to. i know writing and keeping journals/diaries and being consistent helps. i have a physical diary as well.

this website is brand new to me and seems really special.

don't be afraid to say hi.

— tea