early

im up early today, not sure why. im in a somewhat manic episode, i feel like theres so much to get done. my hair smells like shea moisture. im not sure what i ate last night but my tongue feels weird. i have so much to say on here that i just cant. too many eyes. maybe i should start my own diary. no. someone would eventually find it. i need to call my bf. i miss him. my hair is a mess more than usual today, ive decided just to not touch it. itll chill out later. my fingers are tiny. im watching them as i type, theyre tiny. i used to be able to write and write and write for days and days back when iw as in jail and now idk what happened. i guess jail habits should stay there. i have so many journals from jail, i hope they arent lost. im not sure how to wrap this up, i never really do. tootles