im in love?!>!>?1.!? GAH!!??!

its been almost a year and this little "crush" has not only stayed, but right now its strong as fuck. obviously im not gonna give yall a name but its a girl, and shes my best friend which makes this even worse. shes a very confusing person id say? like i know she had a crush on me the first year we met but idk about now. I feel so bad because that year i didnt take the opportunity, but prob because i just met her and it was too soon? but whatever. i regret it. now i see a lot of attention going towards like anyone but me and honestly i am a bit jealous. although, she does choses me as the first person to text or call. ive never been in a relationship and now i want it more than ever. ofc with her. i think i could really treat her right. as cringe as it sounds i have actual dreams about her and sometimes daydream about my future with her in it. lowkey the only problem is how hostile she could be which is pretty bad considering im a person who switches between other emotions pretty damn quickly, meaning if she said one thing not even that direct, my mood would instantly drop. which honestly happens a lot. im not blaming her for it because shes not a very friendly person so i can imagine how panicked she could feel in situations shes not familiar with. leaving the negative side, i think shes starting or still likes me. Lately ive seen a lot of change in her personality, she does this thing were sometimes her laugh sounds like mine and now whenever i recommend something to watch or do, she does it the next day. i think its really cute. right now we prob watch all the same youtubers, our opposite styles match, she lets me style her clothes, she steals my jokes, we watch the same shows, and now she does witchcraft like me. i also like that she really appreciates my interests too. she really supportive which is also cute. a few days ago we planned a "date" together at the mall then the local cemetery for a picnic. idk if she took the hint that its sorta a date, but she agreed anyway!!! =)