just a update

uh hi!!! i havent been on here in two months wow. im writing right now just because i want to update. so lately school is pretty fun. june is a busy month for me. tons of things are going on at school in june so im kinda excited for that. ive been kinda sad since my boyfriends boke up with me. and guess what i told him i liked him again and he rejected me but i was okay with it because he told me to my face that he still liked me but then told my best friend that he doesnt like me anymore. and i love my bestfriend but she always brings up how she thinks my ex likes her and sometimes it hurts but at the same time ive told her that i dont like him anymore so maybe she just doesnt think of it in that way. but it still hurts. i think i might tell her i still like him so that she'll stop talking about him like that. me and my ex worked together for a school fundraiser and he was acting super nice to me but then i saw him from a far talking to one of my prettiest friends and he looked all nervous and he was smilling. i almost started crying right there on the spot. he made me think that he liked me, he got me gifts ands talked to all my friends about me and then he broke up with me through his friends not even face to face. it wouldve been better if he just told me on text to be honest. i relate to cassie from euphoria so much sometimes, she would do almost anything for nate and i would do almost anything for my ex. but he wouldnt for me. and all my friends tell me that maybe hes not as good as he seems and even though i understand and agree i still would get back togetther with him if he asked me to date him again. sometimes i feel like theres something wrong with me for that. sorry i wouldnt usually talk about this stuff but its been on my mind for so long and i dont talk to people about it. thanks to whoever reads this. i promise my blogs wont be as sad as this.