Music Important to Me (1)

I use music to keep me calm and more present. When I start a downward spiral mentally sometimes playing music will keep me here and tethered to reality. 

This is one I found recently.

The song is Churches by flipturn.

It feels long ago and yet recent. It's been a few month since I moved out of my mother's house. I'm not sure if it counts as running away. I'm glad to be away. I can't put things right in my head what did and what didn't happen. I'm not sure if I was delusional just during certain periods or for all of it. My mother was always claiming I was. That I was a danger to others. I only once made a claim that  I would hurt someone else. She wasn't there to even witness that. 
But getting past that.
This song feels right for the empty feeling from this event and the comfort my partner has brought. I'm not sure I ever make sense but detailing these thoughts help. I might make more, might not.
This is more for my own record keeping than anything.