I saw not one, not two, but three ex-friends at my damn job today lmaoooo
One of them even used my deadname, which is just so delightful jfc. One of them I wasn't shocked to see, she's been around a few times, and I'm not shocked when she pops up anymore. She pretends not to recognize me. I look at her with contempt. We move on. It's a small town, it happens.
But the other two, the couple threw me off today. We all graduated six years ago, the woman reminded me. Six years, and those two don't seem to have changed a bit. The man refused to look me in the face or even acknowledge me, which I suppose is par the course since he probably still talks to my ex. The girl wouldn't look me in the face either, but also deadnamed me. What the fuck was up with that? I never go answers out of her, not when everything went to shit senior year. Not when she broke up with her abusive boyfriend. Not when her new boyfriend contacted my bf at the time and said they both wanted to "reconnect". Today, just like then, she didn't explain her actions. Didn't apologize either for being a complete dick.
The whole experience threw me off my groove for hours. I thought about what they would say to people I used to know, people we all went to school with. Then I told myself it didn't matter, and I was better off with all of them out of my life anyway. ...Then I fixated on them laughing at my expense, mouthing off about what they thought they knew. Then told myself it didn't matter again.
I know that when mercury is in retrograde, it drags up stuff from the past until we've learned our lesson and moved on. But I'm not sure what I'm supposed to learn here from mentally unstable jackasses that ditched me to get laid.
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