Why am I such a terrible gamer

I am actually sh1t at games. I love games I never get any practice so I’m terrible and ITS SO ANNOYING I WANT TO BE GOOD AND WIN AND NOT GET ATTACKED BY EVERYONE😭😭😭

Idk what’s wrong with me sorry for this I’m just so sad that I can’t play ignore me😭😭

But maybe someone can tell me how to be good