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rn im just doing classwork but i kinda went off track and have been watching a lot of legal related videos... it's just so damn interesting despite having a hard time understanding it.. but really i will try to finish it off.

i made myself some earl grey tea and added hot steamed milk.. sometimes i really wish i could turn it to a perfume because it smells AMAZING maybe i'll try to find some in the internet later who knows...

(t.w food dieting and body image if you're reading this ig)

skl but.... i kinda wanna be fitter rn even though i can't really do it cuz im so occupied with everything, a lot of people here are so judgy that i don't even understand how i look like anymore. i don't know what to wear and when i want to wear something it just looks SO WRONG ON MY BODY FOR SOME REASON. i don't know at all... 

there was a time in my life i tortured myself to change how i look like, wearing clothes to hide my figure, i didn't eat rice and break and dairy... i forced myself to only eat fruits and vegetables. i saw how much it worked on me.. people complimented me, people then began showing their true opinions towards my body and how i looked like in the past and how i currently looked good but "can be better with a little more work"... which honestly made me happy but lowkey hurt.

i've gotten chonkier and now my family is back into shaming me again... but not too much compared to how i used to be, they laugh when i take it seriously and when im visibly upset saying it's somehow valid to be insulting if it's the truth but in reality they honestly just lack etiquette. it's only wrong when you snap the same way..

but seriously who's smart enough to point it out as if you don't know the state of your health and physical appearance it's so DUMB