Swag Weekend And The Crash After // May 17th 2022

Friday night was nice we went out for dinner and my sisters work then went back to my place and pasted out early cause our Saturday was gonna be jam packed busy. Saturday we woke up early (12pm (12pm is only early for me cause I don’t usually wake up till the afternoon cause my night job)) We went to get our prom clothes during the afternoon. The boyfriend got a red Jessica Rabbit dress exactly like the one from Who Framed Roger Rabbit and I got a red velvet and black suit. Usually I feel any type of way about how I feel like clothing, like it’s just clothes. But in that suit I felt like a million bucks. Me and him looked absolutely stunning together. After the prom clothing shopping we went to a rave which was so much fun, got to meet a lot of cool people and just have a really good time. Also one of my close friends from a different friend group met for the first time and it went really well. I was worried cause typically there is a few homophobic people in that friend group but the friend was really nice to my boyfriend. Then Sunday the boyfriend had to leave. I miss him now and I can feel the crash coming. 

I hate when these crashes come and they always do after days of amazing things happen. It makes sense when the amazing days happen it is like a high you don’t want to get off of. But once the high ends the crash is so bad. I just want to go back to the weekend, I want to see the boyfriend again I miss him, I want to feel the ecstasy of life flow through my veins rather than this dreadful crash of emotional and mental fortitude I’ve somehow found myself in. The part that sucks the most is it is so hard to see my friends too now since we are all working. Most of us are either too busy hustling or working to see each other and our plans keep clashing each other’s. It sucks so much, I just wanna see my friends. The only good news is my brother is finally coming home. :)