update on my last blog

okay so yesturday we made plans to hangout today, we where supposed to hangout an hour ago. but now they wont reply to any of my texts and its soo annoying. ive kinda learnt not to gte my hopes up when making plans with thwm because half they time theyll magically "foget" or do thw whole "ohh im too tried :(((" then go hangout with somone else. Like for one intsnace we made plans to go swimming two weeks before we where supposed to swim, they didnt have abthing suit so i begged my parents to buy them one, and its not like they where unaware they helped me pick out one and get seizes all of that stuff. but then, right before we where supposed to go... "I dont rlly want to go swimming anymore". after i payed for their swimming suit (which was very hard conisdering i dont have all the money in the word tot be spending on other people may i add), planned when and where we would swim, got ready, dressed, makeup. they fucking decided not to go at the last second. fuck that. and its not like this was a one time thing, they ALWAYS cancle last second. but the one time i cancelled last second they got so fucking pissed, like, imagine how i feel!! like fuck you rlly. like fine, go hangout with ur unfunny racist friends who bully me veryday its fine. to make it worse they said "whoever bullys you is dead to me". no their not. you ditch me to go be with them. fuck you. and idk if im just jelouse they have other fiends now, idkkk is this nomral? is it normal to mad at them for hanging out with their other friends instead of me ?