Birthday stuff and a rant?

My birthday is October 4th, in a few days, and I'll be turning 16. This year, I finally get to spend my birthday with my dad. I am very lucky to have a good relationship with my bio dad even though I've seen him more times in the last 1 1/2 years than in my whole life. My parents divorced when I was 2 and my mom got custody, and even though I don't know everything that happened, I kind of wish my dad got custody instead. This year will be the first time since I was like 3 that I will see him on my actual birthday. I always spent it with my mother and her side of the family, so when I realized that I can see him I immediately took the chance. Up until last year I didn't know that I was even aloud to think about wanting to be/live with my dad because of shit that happened, but now that I know it's constantly on my mind. I know that my mom and I would benefit from space from each other because when she was in a really shitty marriage, we were constants in each other's lives. We were present in both the good and bad moments so I'm sure that I'm a trigger for her just as she is a trigger for me. We would both heal faster, and better, if we weren't constantly around one another and my therapist agrees.

Damn, I just re-read all that and I really got off topic. My bad lol, anyways I get to spend the weekend and Monday with him and I'm very excited because I haven't seen him since Father's day. Imma leave a song and end it here 🤟