Blog Entry 3# (Zilla)

I feel terrible for wanting less on my plate but I feel this need to work as hard as I can due to personal issues and I guess my current living condition. I feel guilty.

Everyone in my life has told me that this is all going to be worth it, I just need to keep on going and grinding. I spent nights wondering if they're right, if it's true, I worry that all the hard work I've been doing and moments in my life where I let myself burn out will all be worth it for that life long dream of the life I crave to live. Am I able to repay what I feel like I owe to the people that have supported and took care of me and get my revenge by being successful and happy enough to rub it on the faces of the people that hurt me.

I feel this pressure pretty much everyday of my life, I'm exhausted, I wish I can find a way to balance myself and not feel guilty for not reaching my own expectations.