I am at school right now

So I missed my morning classes because I was in therapy, so I missed a test in History. I decided I was going to go straight to Acadmic Support to do instead of go to him even though he has a free period. Why? You ask. Well, because I feel ashamed and embarrassed that I never turned in the most important History essay that was due in like, idk,  February. So not only did I not do that I also just fucking failed the test. So much for making me teachers proud. This is the one thing I don't like about being in a private school, they care too much, meaning the teachers will get "disappointed in you" which is the worst thing to do to a person who cares about you and your well-being. Ugh I hate my life. If I don't pass I will not mind doing summer school cause I never wanna be in 9th grade AGAIN.