im in love

I'm actually not in love. Idk i have this weird thing where i fixate on certain men for a long time period like hello i don't even like them like that.  The current fixation is someone I met my freshman year of highschool and I gotta stop because at this point it's getting so embarrassing. I think I actually like him but I might not. The only reasoning I have is that he was nice to me. ..... LIKE THAT'S IT?????????????? i mean yeah he's a little cute but straight up i haven't seen him in so long i forgot what he looks like. so basically the only thing i got going for me is my feelings??? like bro that sounds so stupid. But honestly I don't even care. I keep hoping I'm gonna see him again but he lives in a whole ass different state now. Idk I feel like if I had just one more conversation with  him I would be over him but it will never happen. I wanted to talk to him during graduation but he was surrounded by people and I got super nervous so I didn't. That's literally my one regret, LMFAO. Like why was i so stupid he would’ve talked to me he not a douche or anything i just didn’t work up the nerve. I always wanna talk about him to my friends but i can tell they’re annoyed so i'm just gonna stfu already. But now i remember that i can blog so imma be doing this because whos gonna check me? NOBODY it's not like he’ll see this LMFAOOO