contemplating gender

you know, im cool with being feminine and that stuff but i just don't feel like a girl. like being called a "girl" or "female" just feels, weird. and when it comes to masc and nonbinary stuff, its ok but trying to present like that would be a lot of social stress (people has been bullied out of my school district for being trans, nb, ect...) sometimes i wish i could just feel normal about who i am but yk we cant have everything our way :\