Once of a past now a beginning

Not fallen out of the cycle of this dystopian world but...

Into the new hope they had found, they didn't think it was possible 

It came to a realization that the person they looked at with the dawning and deary eyes

Was the one they least expected, This boy 

Full of hope and smiles that it seemed like everything was easy weight 

Like he was truly enjoying every bad and good moment as it had a meaning 

But the mothers child still lost and parch looked at him 

Not for hope but invested in what made him believe 

They couldn't understand why was he so..so..hopeful 

Why did he appreciate the moments that made any ordinary person that struggled in the eyes of death drained and scared 

Was he faking it? Was he trying to be strong for them? Or was he also scared and they refused to realize it  

And was it possible they didn't want to realize this because they were stuck in the moment for their happiness even if it wasn't real or was it real? \

They didn't care, for this was the first person they felt at peace with 

Although they still couldn't shake the anchor that held them their still out of fear of the love that had buried deep within them for this Boy 

Its like he was still making his way through the darkness but on the path 

And on this path he had grabbed their hand not clueless doing so but surely ok with it 

It felt as time had moved on they both were still holding hands one feeling like they depended more on the other and was beginning to feel like a burden 

They were reassured time by time as they both traveled alone in the dark still together that it was okay to be this way and it was most certainly ok to be scared of its struggles and outcomes 

The child's band aided heart ran home crying overwhelmed by every good, bad, terrifying, sheltered feeling they held and fessed it all out on the floor 

It was like the guts of the victim brutally killed by fear of being caught red handed 

Leaving the victim to think of their last thoughts 

This feeling made them want to throw up but yet they said it anyway, the words that would forever hurt someone and leave the other regretful 

She/he/they looked their mother and father in the face and said their truth 

"I like him hes everything and at this point i'm not here for the little attention that i used to want but for everything that they have to offer even if its the insecurities because there not perfection but they provide perfection because this is what love is or so i think i don't know but ill try because he believes in me and i wanna know how that feels" 

The father felt the rush of betrayal although he couldn't explain why and didn't want to

He left without a trace only saying "I love you" 

What a hypocrite 

What a opinionated asshole of a person he showed his own child 

He left the mother to pick up the scrapes he didn't care to clean when leaving 

This didn't change the way the child felt about him though it just pushed them away from what she thought she could trust- her father is the denied and regretful one of who his child loves and it will be his dawned opinion till the day he dies 

The mother could only be scared- her child was growing up and she couldn't recognize it, she didn't know the rules of a mother anymore 

Flooded with her own selfish problems blocked her from seeing her child grow and she wishes to live with that regret for her whole life 

But this daughter/son/child wanted to live with all the flaws regrets and anxiety the depression and denial so she could not be clouded by greed or advantage so she could walk a clear path so he could be there for her Love the one she trusted the one that she felt could be connected besides her Friends 

I love you darling and yes the sacrifices i made were drastic but i wasn't the one that chose for it to be that way it was simply the action of those that reacted