feeling regret

school basically ends at the end of the month for me. what a waste of the year I just spent it sad and miserable; always complaining how I never had any friends and I still have 0 friends. its my fault tho if I really tried I wouldn't be so alone but im too negative to have friends ; last year of school is next year I just feel like my high school experience was pure shit im never going to be happy like this and now all I can ever look forward to is doing drugs or getting high when I get the chance ; even hobbies cant distract me from the emptiness I feel all the time nobody talks to me and everywhere I go I feel like a lonely piece of shit