Realizations

So basically, this year is my year. I've finally realized how important healing is, to break down but also rise up again. To be broken and not expect anyone to pick up the pieces for you, how important independence is, being productive is, but taking a break and letting yourself go as well, and that in this life you have the choice wether to let the current take you or not. I've realized how important contradicting your negative insights is also and looking at things in a different angle, and to not permanently root for the things that are out of your control as well as taking a time to think before making a decision. I guess i got tired of feeling like shit, so i decided to work on it no matter how hard it was to do so. There were days where i feel like going back to my old ways, old thoughts, but i took my time to think to be able to realize that i've made so much progress going back would be a loss. So i didn't, i kept going. I'm still in the process, i'll always be in the process, cause life, people would shut you down either ways, and i know at some point it will affect me, but what's important is i know i won't give up, i'll keep on going.