thinking about how I denied being a lesbian for so long in the middle of class again

dw im not depressing myself or anything its just so funny HABHFILADB.  The only people I think I naturally formed crushes on were girls- I just kept saying I had crushes on guys because that was what was expected of me.  The one dude I even REMEMBER having a crush on, when he moved away I FORCED myself to be sad, because I was supposed to be sad that my crush is leaving.  what was my damage that I identified as bi for so long LMAOO.  Even in high school everyone thought I was a lesbian (they were right of course) cause I only ever dated girls.  The one guy I dated the whole relationship was a disaster and I DECIDED to have feelings for him cause I wanted to experience a relationship with a guy oh my god how did I think I liked men.  jesus christ…… moth babe what were u thinkinggggg. anyways non men loving non men wins <3