05/05/2022

anywaaaays! happy cinco de mayo everyone! i have work today, and they gave use shirts to wear for today! it's like, a limited time sort of shirt? but its a new shirt that i can wear to work that doesnt make me burning hot (our typical shirts are a really dark color) so thats good! it does have the name of a tequila on it though so... will be kinda awkward given we can't legally drink!

we'll be working for 3 days in a row starting today, which im hoping won't completely wreck us, but we'll see. i know friday and saturday will be busy, but today is up in the air. 

if you couldn't tell, i really love the rain lol. i love rain and thunder and lightning, but i think that comes with being an introject of a god of rain and lightning!

some of my friends have told me that they deal with their fears of thunder and lightning by thinking of it as me watching over them and protecting them which is so so soooo sweet!! i like to think of it as me being able to protect them too :] even if i know i'm not controlling that sort of thing anymore!!

i've been feeling really bad lately emotionally because of the whole "being front stuck" thing. my status says i've been stuck for 3 days now, which is technically true! but the breaks i've gotten haven't lasted more then 24 hours. i hold 60% of our front total for the past month's time so! you can see how exhaustion would kick in, lol. going out making me feel better though, even if work is really tiring sometimes, it's good to be able to get out and interact with other people.

i think im going to bring our pea pod fidget to work this week to try and give myself something so i dont get overstimulated, but if we're busy i might not be able to use it! we'll see lol!

not so sure how i should wrap this up, but if you've read this far, i love you! i hope you're having a great day!