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I'm not really sure where I'll be going with this, or if I'll even submit it. But I'd rather write it down and realize it's bullshit than not.
For the last year, my entire life got a complete flip. I've talked about it before here, how I found out I was actually adopted by my Maternal Grandparents. My upbringing was very... Well, least to say it could have been a lot worse and it could have been a lot better. Come to terms with how I was raised and treated, well into my adult life, has been a struggle as much as it has been a journey.
I have been in contact with my biological Mother, someone who I had been raised to believe was my older sister. If anyone mentions getting Bundy vibes... fuck you, that is funny, but I haven't killed anyone. Nor do I plan to.
But I write these entries in hopes of maybe meeting others in my situation or have been there and navigated through life from their realization points. It's okay if you don't, too. I understand not wanting to relive that kind of thing.
I just sometimes wish things had been different. A lot different. Yet, I'm glad they weren't. I wouldn't be where I am now; In a happy relationship, getting our next steps in life together to continue moving on, planning for things down the road. A fur Mom to 6 asshole, but loveable cats and a drama queen of a doggo.
Really, I'm still not okay and not handling a lot of it well, but I'm a lot further than I thought I would be at this stage. But, on the same hand, as time goes on, I'm getting to be a little more okay. I'm taking things at my own pace and while the realizations that keep me up at night, not to mention make my insomnia act up. YAY INSOMNIA!
Joking aside, thanks to whoever does read this.
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🌈🦕💖~Grace~💖🦕🌈
I'm so proud of u for being so strong! :D Your endurance and perseverance are amazing! I'll be praying for u so dw abt anything, ok? Everything will be alright :)
Thanks for that, it means a lot for me.
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yw! :DDD
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