Wait I’m supposed to look like this?

For a long time I had trouble with my self image and the way I looked, more specifically my stomach, chest, arms and inner thighs. I’m a very lengthy person (6’4” in height to be exact) and cause I shot up in height from a very early age it’s caused my body to look a little funky.

There are a few minor physical issues with my body. First of which is my varicose veins which cause huge bumps along the insides of my inner thighs. Next is my concaved chest, my sternum which is the bone between my ribs is curved inward so it makes my chest look really funky. Finally is the stretch marks along my lower back cause I shot up in height so fast.

For a long time these issues I was very insecure about, especially my chest and legs. I would always refuse to show any revealing clothes because of them (i.e. tank tops and shorts) But maybe that was because I used to be deadly skinny too, At one point I think I was 6’4” and 130 pounds like for my height and being a male that is severely under weight. Now that I’m getting a little older I’m starting to gain a bit more weight, and because of that I’m starting to become a little comfortable in my own skin.

Now I’m 170 pounds and my body is starting to fill out more, my arms have gotten bigger and don’t look like tugs anymore. My ribs aren’t as noticeable too which is nice. I still have issues with my concave chest and legs though. Don’t get me wrong it’s not as bad as it used to be but it still feels icky thinking about it. It’s hard seeing photos of myself shirtless cause if it’s not taken from like a complete face forward angle you can see how messed up my chest is. I’ve grown to ignore it when I don’t see it but photos, looking in the mirror, when people comment on it. It’s just like ew. There is some perks to it though, my friends love using it for body shots which is a lot of fun.

I’ve grown to start understanding my body now which is nice, there is still a lot of parts of it which I have a distaste for but no body is perfect right? :/ I don’t love my body, I don’t think I ever will but now I understand it is the way it is and there isn’t much I can do to change that. Maybe that’s the first step to getting better? I got no idea, Anyways I got the day off work tonight and I’m gonna hit the gym with my friend so,

Adios <3

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