panic attacks are fun :D

all i did was watch a movie about schizophrenia which i do not have but  because i have general trauma i started to question what was real and what wasn’t and if there was something after me that i could see but no one else could- then cut to me under the blankets crying my eyes out and barely able to breathe or open my eyes

my chest still hurts plus i have gastrointestinal issues so the pressure in my stomach plus the pressure in my chest i feel like is what keeping my panic levels up high

i’m cuddling my dog rn and it’s helping me feel safe but i’m still extremely paranoid rn and it sucks because i’m home alone so i don’t have anyone to reassure me i’m safe

hopefully i get some sleep and feel better in the morning