5/3/22 - finals week

Today caps off my in-person finals for my first year of college. Classes were weird this semester, they weren't stressful or anything but I definitely probably should be doing better in most of them. Not that any of my grades are bad though, I just know I have a high potential that I don't ever bother to reach. Yesterday was statistics, today was accounting, and tomorrow I host my radio show then go home for good. Except every Wednesday when I also host my show. I'm kind of happy to just be able to chill now though, it's exhausting to be around friends nonstop all the time. Today we went to a breakfast restaurant and while the food was good and I had fun at the mall afterwards, I was completely burnt out by the time we returned to campus and we were just sitting around doing nothing.

One of my friends offered me to stay in her boyfriend's house, I'd get a room to myself for a really low amount of money. It's enticing. I have a dorm room on campus that I picked out for next semester but I wonder if I can cancel that and move into that house instead. I'm not the closest with her and I've only met her boyfriend once so it may be awkward but it also may be worth the struggles.

NXT Spring Breakin' is over now. That's the newest episode that aired tonight. I think it was alright, the matches were largely good but the storylines and characters in NXT have been a bit of a mess recently. Joe Gacy went from a really interesting sinister fake-woke gimmick to a spooky guy with druids and kidnapping. Lash Legend has gone from a shit interviewer who gets two minutes of airtime every week to a regular wrestler who has full matches every week that tend to suck. They keep releasing people and tossing stuff around that makes it hard to keep myself devoted to the show when everything is always changing. I just hope they can stabilize.

The anime I'm watching this season is really iffy. The Executioner and Her Way of Life has been solid so far but I don't really feel any attachment to it. Aharen-san wa Hakarenai has been funny enough but the show has started to get repetitive and shows no signs of changing up the formula. Spy x Family is great but supremely overrated and I get the sense that the fanbase this show will cultivate will both be unbearable and extremely creepy. My favorite show is probably Tomodachi Game. It's similar to Squid Game but focuses on a much smaller group of people and instead of killing everybody, the game is designed to break up the friendships that got involved. Other than the new shows, I'm also trying to watch Delicious Party Pretty Cure, but I'm a month behind and will "eventually" catch up. Like I previously mentioned, I started Girls Last Tour to follow along a Reddit re-watch. I'll be done with it in two weeks if I can keep up, and I really do love it so far. I'm also still trying to get through Naruto, which I really just need to get myself to watch at this point.

My new Panic Playdate has been a joy to play with. Today is Tuesday, the new games for week 3 only came out yesterday, and I'm already done with one of them: Pick Pack Pup. It's a really fun puzzle game with a good sense of humor, but there were only 30 formal levels and I find it hard to commit to a non-Tetris puzzle game when there isn't some kind of goal to work towards. That's why I've been on Block! Hexa for years now trying to work towards beating every level.

I'm listening to my noise album right now. I honestly made some cool sounds, and it feels really cool to have some sort of music album out in the world that I can point to and say I've made myself. Even if it's just weird, endless noise music. I've been wanting to make more for a bit now but have never really bothered. Maybe I should do that soon? Could be fun. I think Deliver and Masquerade are my favorite tracks, I definitely do a better job making more ambient, relaxing noise than I do the harsher weirder stuff. Probably because that's stuff I can actually find enjoyment in and actually have a bit of inspiration to make. I don't know all too much about noise but I do listen to Pulse Demon sometimes just as background music when I want to relax or drown out the world around me. That album is fairly harsh but it just works as calming music for me, I can't explain it. The other inspiration would be 55 Cadillac by Andrew W.K., a pure improvisational piano album that I really love. I technically made a largely improvisational synth album, but it's not really the same thing. We'll see if I make anything this summer.

I'm not sure what else I want to say right now. I suppose it would be smart if I didn't force myself to say everything right now. I wouldn't want to run out of content for the blogs! I do still wonder if anybody will read this though. I guess I'll find out soon. I should talk about my recent music habits in the next post. I'll do that, actually.

Love and Mercy,

theangel