Introspective passage from IG

Saving this here so I don't forget it:

"What I wear is not my gender. At least not for me personally. Both of these are just extensions of my existence. They are not masculine or feminine to me. They do not define my sexuality. They are not intended to illustrate my political beliefs. They are just as they are. Things I like to wear when the weather gets warm. Illustrations of my personal aesthetic and artistic interests.

And yet somehow, as much as I strive to steel off the obstacle of existing outside expectations- as much as I say to myself “do what You want, forget the gazes, giggles, glares and gasps.” I find myself processing everyday that while what I wear is not meant to be a battle against society- it does indeed wage war on the perception of “what, who, and how one should be in society”. It makes a seemingly simple activity like swimming the defiance of potential death and a political debate unsolicited on the beach.

Does everything I do need to be something in which I have to survive? Must I accept that my existence is resistance and trick myself into believing somehow that it is a privilege to provoke so many people by merely donning a bit of fabric?

I’m proud I’ve survived this far. I’m not posting this because I’m tired or feeling sad for myself. I’m posting this because I’m bored. I’m flat out bored with so many people attempting to put others into their own expectations and shackling themselves to silly self regulations and regulations of others. I’m bored, checking my watch hoping for time to come when people are ready to finally be free. When people are willing to free others. You want to have limitations on Yourself, then in my opinion as long as You are choosing those limitations, it’s power. But please, for the love of all that is interesting and good, release people from Your gaze, grip, and guffaws. Because for some it’s deadly. And for everyone- it’s BORING."

Published by Hunter Heartbreak

Introspective passage from IG

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