happyness

I am becoming me again. I've been so lost, I still am but now I'm starting to see more clearly, I have more clarity in myself and the world around me. it's still hard, most days I still feel really hollow and paranoid. I just couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I was searching for literally anything to pull me out of the poisonous and vicious place I was in, I felt like there was no way out, I was slowly being consumed by my own emotions and the fabricated reality I made up. I felt happy today, for the first time in a long time, you know that joy you just feel within you, you don't have to smile or laugh to feel it, it just kind of creeps up on you and all of a sudden is everywhere. the sun was out and I listened to a fuck ton of cd's and I was just being. today is a big day for me and I am proud.