Some Personal Sh!t mostly venting

Life cant give me a fucking break can it?

With my papa dying and finding out I'm betrayed by my own family

My moms gf who I thought of as a third mom (I already have 2 moms) she lied to all of us she said she was sober and wasnt selling anymore she fucking lied about all of it and put my mom in jail Im so pissed I also found out the reason multiple friends wouldnt stay was cause of her harassing them (one was 12 another was 18 another was 16) she yelled and harassed them she also did the same to my 7 year old sister fat shamed her and harassed her she ignored my trauma multiple times making it clear "you cant sexualize something thats asking for it" sense I asked her to stop being on my mom 24/7 cause it was a trigger from being sexualized when I was a lesbian and triggered me from when I was raped to try and "cure" it her being all over my mom lead to my mom being so busy with her she wouldnt make dinner and Id have to rely on school but I stopped eating at school cause it made me sick I lost about 50lbs lbs because of her calling me fat and harassing me ignoring my trauma I was 175lbs I am now 125lbs I started going home to hide in my room she reminded me so much of my moms ex husband my little sister started acting up she was getting better with her actions shes now back to being a bully I have DID also she invalidated that and said I thought it was cute and trendy even though for years I was ignoring the diagnosis tried to pretend as if it wasnt there knowing the problem and trying to fix it is better than ignoring it she made it a whole lot worse in my life I keep having intrusive thoughts because of it all she caused me to relapse (SH cocaine and heroine) twice ive also developed alter and had alters split from the stress she put in my life theres even more genderfluid and go by a different name then I was born with I go by Vixxion/Vix/Ace/Grey she still deadnames me and says "Im sorry I just cant change it ill always know you as (deadname) till you change it legally" which is absolute bullshit shes caused alters to split putting into my life Im so pissed and stressed and idk what to do anymore and wanna give up.