vent

i completely stopped getting invited to go to the park with my friends and ive gotten replaced again which sucks and yk my partner is cheating on me so all that great stuff but i cant say i care anymore im getting very very tired - i think im gonna go home after lunch bc the only reason im staying is bc theyre serving orange chicken and rice which is SUPER GOOD somehow for school food but yeahhh very tired very worn out, ive gotten my grades up and my lowest grade is a 71 right now which is GREAT for me, and my parents still want more from me but they arent really seeing whats past the surface level i guess? its self inflicted though because i refuse to tell them but whatever im not even totally worried about that i guess im always bending over backwards for other people and no one really helps me or cares enough to notice when im going downhill but its okay because its not like theyre obligated to help of course but im not obligated to help anyone either so fuvk all of this, im done helping everyone. i think most of this is feeding from my friend talking about all of his partners and completely shutting me out when i open my mouth about mine or ask for advice, he usually ignores me or says its a "turnoff" and then rants about his partners like theyre some hot sh1t which angers me but its okay lolzies!!! a lot of stuff is going downhill recently, kids are starting to talk about me behind my back which sucks and my social life has been destroyed sadly but its okay i think im gonna take a nap now byebye!!