[NSFW TMI!!!] finally figured out why I only enjoy mlm fanfiction as a transmasc lesbian

i don’t see myself as a women, so i can’t see myself in lesbian content at all, and second verse same as the first in the straight fanfic ON TOP OF it’s not queer. that leaves mlm, where i do see myself as a transmasc, where the stories are queer, and where you’d be surprised how often the stories are actually about trans men, putting my own damn anatomy in the mix. I am near certain i would never want to fuck a man in real life [unless I was also a man?? but that’s a different crisis topic], since last time it was an option for me it genuinely made me sick to my stomach, but the concept of “something in me” is appealing sexually and that’s shit I can ALSO find more commonly in mlm content. goddamn epiphany holy shit- i was starting to feel like a fucking creep doing some fetishy bullshit but now that i’ve laid it out in a map for myself i feel so much better