*marcy wu my beloved

i just want to start this off by saying that this blog post will just be me rambling about all of the ways that i'm super similar to marcy wu and how i kind of came to the realization that me looking at her is really just me looking into a cartoon mirror

god i love marcy wu. she's such a relatable nerd character that i just can't not put her up in there with all of the other characters i project my identity onto.

this silly little accident prone desperate to be liked dnd player!! you are me!! i am you!

literally almost everything marcy does resonates with me and my personal experiences on a scarily accurate level!! like the way that she lacks awareness of the things and people around her when she's interacting with stuff that she's invested in, for example. i tend to get super fixated on the things that i'm interested in to the point of refusing to speak or acknowledge anyone in favor of whatever i'm doing.. 

and also the whole reveal in true colors.. i completely understood marcy's reasoning and (although kind of messed up) i can see myself (especially myself in middle school) doing the same thing in order to keep my relationships. being whisked away into a fantasy world with nobody but the friends you've been clinging to since forever before you're forced to move away from them? yes of course i love escapism

scarily enough, i was also in a middle school all afab trio with the same hair colors (one of them constantly wore her blonde hair in a ponytail and the other was a southeast asian brunette while i had black hair) and i had a similar role to marcy in the group ^^:: i would always carry our group projects and they kind of took care of me just like sasha and anne did with marcy.. and while i did hang out with them, they were never really interested in hearing about my interests, which is why the flashback in the newest episode really hit me hard in the chest. but i really did care about them and also stuck with them since i had a ton of trouble with socializing with other people.. i also had to move away from them and had a similar episode to that of marcy when i learned about it.

also the fact that darcy exists. i love nerds with corruption arcs because i am also a nerd with a corruption arc.