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things are complicated. why. i find myself smiling. my face gets hot. i told my friend about u. given its a friend thats never serious and finds an awful lot of joy picking on people so it had to be the worst decision. i never hear the end of it. he's never tell anyone though. i think only he knows at the moment and i want to keep it that way since this is just embarrassing. my friend and sister were under the impression that we would be a thing right now and they've even gone as far as placing bets. v v odd. i made a playlist and wrote cute notes. this is so gross. i spoke to my friend earlier, the one i told. i told him everything. its very complicated u see. i dont want to like u. its pain and im supposed to like someone else right now. its all v v silly. i wish it would go away. and i mean that in a good way. i dont know how to explain how though.