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we are good for each other. v v different people but we work. we always did. ur patient and collected. u have been a constant in my life for a while now. bc of u i crave intimacy. i like the whole thing of holding hands and all that fun stuff. bc of me u crave independence. you want to be ur own person, i love that about u. i used to want to be with you always. i'd lie to friends and call of plans, leave calls early to talk to u. i wouldve gone with u anywhere. u made me feel loved. u still do. and i hate that. i make excuses to not talk to u. i told u i wasnt feeling the same as i used to and u were okay with that. i explained how i was confused on how i felt and instead of saying something mean or anything like that u just said u'd wait for me to figure out how i was feeling. i hate u so much for that. i hate how nice u are. i hate how patient u are. i hate how collected u are. i hate how ur a constant in my life. i hate it so much. i hate how devoted u are. i hate ur willing to wait for me. i hate how interested u are the hobbies i pick up. i hate how u listen to my favorite songs. i hate how you learned how to play my favorite lullaby. i hate how much time we spent together. i hate how u'd do anything to make me happy. i hate it. i hate how u remember little things i told u so long ago. i hate how u like the sound of my voice. i hate how u message me every morning when u wake. i hate every message u send asking about how im doing. i hate when u ask about my family or school. i hate u so much. i hate how ur so open and tell me how u feel about me.