should i leave you now the app scents i get hate by some people becz of my diease and my scololcess

becz people on there they already called me a bitch  a emo bitch and i already got made fun of haveing crocked back and nf diease so why did i meet people and they want me to feel shame baout my body thats like bullying online if people wanted me to feel shame about my body  i cant control my scololcess or nf diease becz  i cant its like then why am i alive if most boys make fun of me or  caliling me names or some dont like me  its like how can i show the world its ok to be born differnt i wished i could do that unless i can write a story about it or something  its like having a diease and being judge by it it sucks  like hell to me  when this guy said u do drugs and stuff thinks i was gaby and stuff its like one i dont do drugs i lied tohim i said i dont take meds becz i dont want him to know im on pain meds plus  he wanted me to show my face like on stream to the hole world  i cant do that thats why he got mad then when i came back agian he wanted to show my face  the one time i said im shy and stuf and i am scared but this one person said they are here for me  thats nice one person can be there for me when i get into a figt online  felt like cyberbullying to me online people have made me cry becz they made fun of my spine  so i dont trust alot of boys  becz they are mean  some times to me they cant under stand what i went through and stuff  in life most people dont get me what i went through