life

but i have birth marks thats a sign of nf diease  i was born with thoses marks scents bascally my hole life i dont like when kids say what happend to ur back becz its long story for them  dont want to tell them then they will be sad for me some people will feel bad for me but if its like mean people they dont care they would laugh at me  i have tryed to kill my self with pills and cut my self i did the pills becz i wanted my dogs back but i dont know how im alive though but that was differnt though well i have scars from sergry but also fro me cutting my self  but i dont know why i tryed to kill my self in the past i did have no one and i didnt want to be here though  thats why  well i had 4 dogs and two died one in 2019 and 2020 so if i was dead in 2019 i would be in heven or hell  though becz i would have to talk to some one like when im dead  but if i lose the 2 dogs i have then its over for me