Friends

I’m losing IRL friends by the day and I honestly want more friends. It’s the only reason I’m alive right now. I have 3 reasons to stay alive right now and all three of them are people. My partner, one of my friends, and my sister. But at the same time, I’m scared to make new friends just in case something would happen to me. I’m scared of people but I want friends. I’m scared one day I’m gonna k*ll myself and because of my d**th, they’d also follow my lead.