the internet

ive been struggling with my body image for a while now, and not just my weight but my hair and face and my feet and my hands and my chest and effectivley everything

and i just hate how personalised some of these stupid ads and videos are on the internet. 

im constantly getting ads about the "flawless makeup look" and workout videos for "ripped abs" all the while having these beautiful women with flawless skin and tiny waists and like the perfect clothes ever all over my fyp on tiktok and other platforms and i mean go them, no hate but it gets tiring seeing the same thing over and over again and i sometimes wish that i was never exposed to all that and so my mind could love me for me and not scream at me everytime i eat something. 

and every single little comment about how i look, from people i know or strangers about how i look in a negative way gets to me more then i realise. just like last week one of these guys i was hanging out with called me fat, and it was unprovoked, i wasnt even THERE with him he was literally talking to someone else and i just managed to overhear it like ?? and he then gets tells me that i cant take a joke when i get annoyed about it? its so stupid. 

im sick of all of these beauty standards and i dont know how to start even tolerating myself when i'm not even overweight im just surrounded by the same body shapes over and over again and i dont look like that. 

anywayy rant over haha ty for reading this far ily <3