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"i sat on a call with my partners all night <33" dude i cannot take this anymore please stop man if i hear something else about your partners im going to shoot myself. its simply because im envious, my "partner" doesnt even text me first or probably consider me a romantic interest anymore. he added his ex back on disc and theyre talking again, he never asks me how im doing and its always vise versa. i write him letters and he doesnt even read them, hes too "busy". i spend so much time and money on him and he doesnt care. he told my one of my someone he thought of me as a friend after explicitly stating him and i were dating. am i getting played?? possibly lolzies but ive gotten screwed over by so many cis men i simply dont care. i'd bend over backwards and do almost anything for him but i know he wouldnt do anything for me. he doesnt even wanna text me hello or anything like that, but it doesnt matter! i fell asleep to the playlist i made for him - hes never made me any playlists but he makes playlists for his ex all the time :// im getting so worn out - the only time he actually has a sustainable conversation with me is when he asks for noods and ofc i give them to him, i want to talk to him! he means so much to me, i want to be able to talk to him and i want him to care about me too. what have i been doing wrong? why does this happen in every single relationship i have? i dont know what i keep messing up - i'm willing to do anything for my partners and they usually end up walking all over me