Tuesday, April 26 2022 - 11:07pm ~ Doubt

As I doubt I learn to recreat my perspective of what is worth my hope, what is worth my time to the extent of overwhelming consumption. Do I stutter and combust un-to any kind of prospected love. No I stand up tall despite the rhumors that circulate and continue to push. I go out and apply for jobs always make my therapy and try to do better every single day. Each day is a struggle but the struggle is what I live for knowing my life’s not perfect and it’s nobody’s fault but mine. I always fear not having control, but that goes back to hope or faith. Giving up control and having faith in the process of life taking or giving whatever you may needs gives leeway to opportunity. Intervention of new habits and the changing of old stories is always a process. I need to change in order to enjoy life. Because I’m forced to adapt to a new environment in the same old town I’ve lived in for 18 years.