just venting

sometimes i feel like theres no reason for me to exist. i used to have so many friends when i was a teenager but when i grew up everyone just seemed to drift away. i only have my partner and he doesnt seem to like me some days either. people are so quick to forget me and so slow to give me a chance. the world turns too fast and it really feels like i got left behind. it has to be my fault, but what could i even do about it? being myself turns people away and pretending to be someone else makes me too boring to care about. what is the point?