self care <3 pt.1

ive been struggling with what i think is depression: unable to maintain my own hygiene, no motivation to do anything, sleeping day, giving up on responsibilities, lack of interest in anything, giving up on social connections, etc. well ive been feeling really down the past few months. i just didnt feel like doing anything, i just wanted to stay home and sleep my life away. i didnt even want to play videogames which i wouldve rather done instead of nothing. its hard making myself revise for tests and do my homework. ive also gotten addicted to skipping which is really really bad for me. i dont know what happened but one day i just decided to take the day off to clean my depression room which helped a lot. that kinda started the process of taking care of myself. i started to care less about the little things and started to focus on how to start solving my problems. i had to start from the root and since this is all happening because my mental health has been plunging down steeply i asked my mom for a therapist. she was against it at first bc narc mom lmao but then i really put my foot down and said that i really need it because its really affecting my life as we can see me failing at staying in school. so thats one of the things ticked off. i made a list of questions id ask the therapist about along with some tips on how to basically live. im a burnt out kid and ive never really learnt how to do things and id like to start from scratch, by asking for help. theres many more goals that i want to achieve to make myself happier <3 ill blog abt it some other day