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I liked you, I even loved you. I loved everything about you, the way you acted, the way you looked, even just the little things you did. Your smile gave me warmth. You were my everything. You could have done the worst things and I still would’ve loved you, that’s how much you meant to me. Yet one day, you tore it all away… My deep passionate smiles towards you all slowly faded into deep frowns, then into a grimace. I tried to speak to you but to no avail, everything felt so dark, so empty. It happened so fast, one day you were there by my side, then another you were gone. It wasn’t just you, it was everyone, changing their faces, switching their sides. I was all alone, stuck by myself, trapped with thoughts and memories of you. My attempts at moving on only dug me deeper and deeper into this spiral of self doubt, “Who am I?” “Does anyone like me?” “Do I even like me?”. No, I don’t even like myself. After being exposed to myself for so long I saw what I was to everyone else,a nuisance, a waste of space, nothing. I need you back in my life, but it’s clear you don’t feel the same. Looking at you now, you’re much happier than you’ve ever been, far, far away from me, maybe you’ve even forgotten me… But I haven’t forgotten you, I’ll never forget you. I wish I could speak to you one last time, just to say something like “I’m sorry”, I wish you’d look at me in the eyes and smile, and embrace me into a warm hug and say something sweet like “I’ll always love you”. But that’ll never happen of course. Besides, it’s not just you who has forgotten me, everyone has. I just wish I’d have died instead, because at least if I died I’d still exist in your memories, but now I’m just dead to everyone, in body and in mind. How can I go back to calling you all strangers if you all still exist in my mind?
Stranger
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Seriayn
Holy shit I love this please never delete this
thank you thank youuu
by OMGkawaiiAngel; ; Report
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I love how you write it has such meaning and passion, however, I highly recommend separating one big gigantic paragraph into different paragraphs. I struggled with this until I learned how and when! So my tip for you is whenever When you change time or location: Whenever you skip forward or backward in time or move from one location to another, start a new paragraph. or just change ur paragraph whenever it feels needed (don't overdo it tho) :D I look forward to more please!!
Thank you! I'll work on my paragraphs next time
by OMGkawaiiAngel; ; Report