its questionable

i've honestly no idea why i'm here. wether i should be or not. wether i deserve to be in top sets at school or if i should just stick with the bottom. wether i even exist. wether i need help or i don't, or maybe i just don't want or deserve to be truly happy. wether i deserve my friends and family. if they even exist. perhaps everything is just a figment of my dull imagination, or someone else's imagination for that matter. maybe there's no such thing as imagination. maybe the no such thing as a thing. wether im real. or dead. or maybe im not alive nor dead. or maybe i'm from a place that i am any of the following. maybe i'm not from a place at all. maybe nothing exists and everything is just utter nonsense. maybe nonsense doesn't exist. it could all be a lie. or the truth. or not a lie or a truth. perhaps lies and truths don't exist. but without a truth there would be no lie, and without a lie there would be no truth. i'm not entirely sure but if you'd like to be friends, as long as i know if you're real and not just a something that could be anything then please feel free to :)