sleepy

sleepy... but im well. i slept pretty well last night! i also had a dream! my bed is one of the best things about my life. i have so many pillows and blankets and i refuse to get rid of any of them.

unfortunately, i barely remember anything about my dream. you forget 90% of them as you wake up, anyways. i need to get back into the habit of writing down my dreams. i have an account on an app called "Dream Journal Ultimate" which i made back in 2016 when i was still ten. ive written down a few dreams over the years. ive even had a lucid dream once. i

cant believe its going to be turning SIX this year. a few of my roblox accounts are already six years old. a child born on february 10th, 2016 is six right now. thats my roblox account Jibanyanlover's age. i cant remember my very first roblox account. my accounts on moviestarplanet are seven now. two of them will be turning eight this year. THEYRE OLDER THAN MY COUSINS YOUNGER DAUGHTER. and somewhere out there, my animal crossing: new leaf town which i lost a few years ago will be turning nine later this summer. WTF.

it really puts life into perspective. time slips out of your hands like sand. there are so many things i could have done with my life. if i could go back in time and fix my mistakes, i most certainly would, because the reason why my life is so shitty rn is because of all the stupid things i decided to choose. fml.

i wish i didnt have internalized misogyny growing up, because id probably be really pretty and dainty right now rather than looking and acting like a guy. the jacket im wearing right now isnt helping. one day ill learn to be myself.

you can be anything on the interwebs. :) thats why i love this website sm! ♡