Things going on in my brain

If you haven't read my previous blog post, hello. My name is Ghost and I am a queer, latino non-binary minor living in the US. I've decided to start a blog here on SpaceHey as a way to deal with some things in my life. A few things I would like to put out before I get into my main post are:

-My Blog Content Warnings. I expect there to be a lot of mentions of death, mental illness, and unfortunate situations along with venting about stuff. If you are uncomfortable or triggered by any of this, I suggest not reading through these. I will make a more detailed blog post about this later.

-A possible post schedule. I think maybe posting two to three times a week would be good for a consistent and frequent schedule. Largely, it's going to depend on my motivation that week, so some weeks I may post once, others I may post multiple times. We just need to see where this goes.

-A change to the song of the week. Since I'm trying to post multiple times a week, there will now be a different "song of the week" for every post.

And finally here is today's post.

This year has been completely the opposite of what we expected. This was supposed to be our milestone year. A year of celebration. Not death and mourning and loss. And now we've become stuck in this endless loop of grieving and I still have yet to feel something toward the lost. I barely knew any of them and I'm expected to be crying when they die. Now we're losing our dog who's been around longer than I've been alive and I'm finally hurting. Why did it take this long for me to feel something? It's annoying.