My secret and the hurt it brings

so hello you are reading this for a reason. maybe to get some juicy drama or whatever. I came here to vent so maybe someone can read about my problems or somehow relate.

lets start way back when I was a kid I used to go to church and have fun on the playground. I always felt connected to god NOW DON'T GO AWAY YET HERE ME OUT!!!! I am kinda christian but I'm also BISEXUAL. There now that I didn't scare you off or I did whatever. now that that's out of the way. Today there was a vow of silence that most of the LGBTQIA people in our school. The silence was to help show how many LGBTQIA students get harassed and beaten due to who you are ( QUEER) in schools. SOOOOO of course I participated we were silent the whole day most people used their phones to talk I used my ASL skills and pencil+paper. (it is so damn hard to walk and write at the same time). At the end of the day basically the 8th period they told everyone who participated in the vow of silence can come down to the library.
In the library we all sat down in those chairs the parents sit in in elementary school where they wait to hear your name called for an attendance award. well anyway we sit down and they give us a speech and then tell us to talk about our stories. There are about 40 or 50 kids in the library so not everyone who wanted to share got to share. but I did nvm that though not really important to the story.
After that they announced at the end that we there was this community thing we can attend an also a get ready for it a GAY PROM and guess the theme RAINBOW MASQUERADE!!!! but thats not the problem see I wanna go but the problem is that I have mixed feelings about telling my parents that I'm gay. My mom kinda knows but I don't wanna make it to revealing and my dad idk he says hes homophobic but idk if hes changed due to the fact that he's talked about other people accepting there children. like he wouldn't mind if one of his kids was gay as long as they didn't bring a stud home.

what should I do cause I really wanna go but I just have the fear that they are going to think the worst. Just the fear of not being accepting is enough. I just need help.

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