inside the mystical brain of pete wentz

i love pete wentz lyrics xP

"i cant commit to a thing be it heart or hospital"

i love this line. like, cant commit to heart, not knowing exactly what you want. to me, its like the heart is plugged full of unsureness and doubt. do i actually love this person? do i mean the things i say? it means not trusting what you originally think or go through with and instead questioning the logistics of your own mind. being unable to go through with pre-made promises and instead overthinking the simplest of selections. cant commit to a hospital, well, this one feels self explanatory, doesnt it? fighting against the words that tell you that you need help, and instead deciding to spoon feed yourself the same continual incantation: im fine. im fine., im fine. refusing to let one self and receiving help. not listening to the heart or mind. 

and then adding onto that, 

"i couldnt bring myself to call except to call it quits"

an example of classic cold feet. ill interpret this as such, in love so deep, too deep to be rescued, but paired with the knowledge that everything accumulated will fade into nothing eventually, the knowledge of impending doom. all of the warm flashes of bliss had at one point boiled over and created a juncture; the idea of separation growing familiar and probably in ones brain and suddenly crept upon the relationship and abruptly shoved itself within grasp too close for comfort. and now... the feeling of being overwhelmed finds oneself once more. so much feeling of overwhelm that one doesnt know what to do with it and grows scared. too scared to deliver a proper goodbye.