Diary entry 5

hi little rocks and twigs on the side of the road!! it has been a veery very long time since my last diary entry lol.. not much has happened but kinda a lot has happened you know wht i mean? i moved in with my dad until i find another place to live (visiting a place tomorrow so hopefully it works out and i can move back to ottawa where my buddies are in may :D) i also was really sad and suicidakl so i went to the hospital and they kept me there and said i had borderline personality disorder and i had a breakdown.. but i have been out for a couple of weeks and its good to know whats up with my brain instead of just guessing. but its also scary!! i dont know many people with that only one person and shes kind of a distant person so its hard to talk about. also when i was at the hospital oh um TW for sexual assault i think i should put that on here but i had to talk about bad high school experiences where guys would touch my butt like kind of a lot one guy in the change rooms even smacked it once. every time i had clothes on or at least underwear so i didnt take it very seriously and i didnt tell anyone else cause i thought everyone else wouldnt take it seriously either. but also cause it was highschool and i was going through puberty and like especially being trans during it was already bad enough but going through that while also first developing sexual feelings definitely had stinky effects.. but i am oute and um ya i really hope i get to move to ottwa soon ALSO i contacted my school since i did the first year of it and dropped out in 2020 and i wanna go back to it now but like i failed a few classes at the end caus i was not in a good place but because i fucked up and failed i have to do those classes starting MAY 9TH instead of september like normal causd theyre not offered as first semester courses or whatever so if i dont find a place to live in time im going to be VERY SAD!!!! cause then ill have to wait until JANUARY OF NEXT YEAR!! to go to SCHOOL!! which will suck cause i miss school and learning about things i like and also making friends lets be honest school is just a way to make friends with people who like what you like. i think that is all for today.. silly prilly signing off