Hey there(vent warning)

January 1st, 2022:

New Years Day. I stayed up an extra hour so that I could celebrate with my at-the-time girlfriend, who lives in a different time zone than I. A few days after this, my girlfriend breaks up with me because I wanted to take a break from dating. A few days after that, my family receives news that my aunt(mom's side) and my great-grandmother(dad's side) are dying.

Sometime early in February:

My aunt died 4 days before my mom's birthday, so we left for Illinois to be there for the celebration of life. My mom and another aunt were supposed to sing, but mom broke down, causing me and my two siblings to also start crying. I got looked over(like always) and the rest of our stay was fine.

Sometime around/before April 8th, 2022:

My great-grandmother died. This is the first time I've seen dad cry. It's painful seeing the emotionally strongest person you know start crying over something you yourself could barely feel. It hurt. I'm glad I was able to talk to one of my closest friends, though.

April 8th-10th, 2022:

My grandma(mom's side), mom, and I all experienced a strange phenomenon where it felt like the spirit of our dead cat came back to check on us. She's been gone for about 7 years now and I still miss her. (I love you, Zima) The things that happened during this time were minimal, but still apparent. Both mom and grandma accidentally called our current cat(her name is Kya), the name of the old one. I, however, had a dream where I hallucinated that I saw her. It was so vivid and memorable. One of the only dreams I can remember clearly. None of us had said anything about the incidents to each other until I described my dream(Sunday, April 10th). Since then, I don't know if anything else has happened.

April 11th, 2022:

I think this is the day we got in the car and left for New Jersey for my great-grandma's funeral. The trip took around a day up, we stayed for about 4-5 days and left. So many people got to be there and knew her, and so many were crying. I sat and watched. I never got to know her very well, seeing as I can barely speak Spanish. I don't like that I couldn't feel the same way as her, but I managed to get a glimpse of her from where I was sitting. She looked calm and peaceful, as if she were just sleeping normally. Sweet dreams, Mama.

April 21st, 2022(Today):

My mom got news that another family member on her side has died. She's scared that the family member's daughter is next, seeing how close they were. I hope that this is the last of the deaths this year, but I know there may be more to come. My mom and grandma have to plan their trip back up to Illinois. I don't know what the plan is, whether my younger sibling and I are staying or going up with them. Dad's probably staying down here again, though. On the brighter end of things, I feel like I might be getting over my previously mentioned ex(I'll explain some of the things that happened between us another time, all I will say now is that I'm glad I'm finally moving on from something so controlling and toxic).

Edit: I forgot to mention this, but I think one of my dogs may be on the brink of death. He's been through a lot, but now he's not eating much anymore. He's around 13-15 years old, so it's bound to happen soon. I grew up knowing this dog and now we're losing him too. Today we switched his meal a bit from dry food and canned food together to just canned food to see how well it would work. So far, he hasn't gotten up to eat. He used to run for his food. This kinda hurts to watch. I'll make any more updates on his condition in my Bulletins. 

I know that it maybe be hard for some people to read through this due to the sheer length of this post. I don't know how often I'll post, yet, but I'll make any schedule updates on my bulletin. I'm hoping to make this either weekly or bi-weekly, but we'll have to see. If you made it this far, thank you.

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