I'm quitting Genshin!

And it kind of sucks to say this because it's by far the only game that got me tearing up in the middle of the night because of its enticing lore; simply beautiful, along with my stupidly amazing main, Raiden Shogun, and the friends I've made there. Suddenly, it's hard to leave it all behind, especially after expecting that I'd be staying for a really, really long time, not just for 3 months. Be a long-term player, so to speak.

But I can't, and I refuse to. I'm not blaming the game, I'm not blaming anyone, no-one at all, and the reason for this is rather personal; the point is, I can't. I'm tired of begrudgingly opening the game to claim my welkins, do my commissions, and spend my resin. Every single day. It makes me feel so shitty and I'd carry this feeling for the rest of the day. Rinse and repeat. Not to mention the grinding aspect of the game, which tore away at my sleep schedule.

Ayaka just came out recently, and although I can't lie about how much I want to reinstall Genshin, I'd rather convince myself not to. It's difficult, but upon seeing just how strenuous it is to actually stop playing the game and why it's difficult, it oddly makes the Convincing Myself part a little bit...easier? At first, and I mean, like, when you're new to the game, it tends to lure you in deeper with its well-thought-of lore and characters (such as the Raiden Shogun, she's the reason why I used to grind the game day and night), you're rewarded with an abundance of primogems and stuff, you have a lot--like, a lot lot to explore because it's an amazing, therapeutic open-world game and all of those kind of keep your eyes locked into the game, y'know? The game also has some clever schemes to incentivize players into staying, such as the welkin moon (for those who have purchased it), daily commissions for primogems, and of course, resin. Almost everything is time-gated and scarce, including the limited character event banners which players spend time and money grinding for, the events which you cannot do in one sitting because you'd have to log back in everyday to access each facet of the event, etc. All of this, when deciding to quit the game, may incite some feelings of "missing out" or something, ahem, which I ALREADY AM FEELING. But never mind. In truth, is it truly appropriate to call it "missing out" when all I ever wanted was to fix my headspace and life? So scratch that, I'm not missing out, even if I am game-wise. ^^ Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to slander the game, in fact, go ahead and keep playing if such a game is compatible with your lifestyle and preferred gameplay. I'm only speaking for myself, since I admittedly am quite vulnerable to the negative aspects of the game's monetization.

Pfft, in short, I don't think I'm coming back soon. Soon, because I might still change my mind. After all, lucky are those who managed to start the game with someone, but I've yet to find that someone with whom I can call the game, "our game." ^^♡ In that way, playing wouldn't be so dreadful and lonely anymore. Q_Q

That's all for now, I guess. See you! Good thing I have Identity V up my sleeve, LOLOL. ^^'