DAY 5 - April 16th, 2022

Today was kind of a shitty day for me. I woke up with a heavy weight on my chest, attended this very boring class that I now regret even signing up for. Felt so anxious and was so nauseous all day. When I finally ate I just felt like I needed to vomit. Pretty much one of the worst days I’ve had this month. I literally went out and cried in my backyard 😭I was that overwhelmed being in the house tbh. I got some work done, mostly half assed tbh. I just want this semester to end already. 

Today I realized how I have no interest in pursing anymore sort of career but am forced to because it’s not easy to just get a hot rich husband yk 😭😭. Whatever… hopefully tomorrow will be a better day for me. I haven’t felt like drawing for a while, been so down man UGH SHITTY DAY LITERALLY RUINED MY WEEK FRL.

 

OH OH I watched The Extra Man today and lemme tell you what, seeing Paul Dano cross dress was mwa chef kiss but the way they purposely made it look wack was annoying. The ending was kind of odd, Louis wanting to look like a female and once in full cross dress he doesn’t look exactly as the female he imagined in his head which broke his heart. LIKE THAT SHIT BROKE MY HEART TOO? The rest of the ending went as a blur to me because I didn’t pay attention, but yo I was like WHAAA 😭😭Sooob how could they?? Which I mean I understand people go through but that really broke me tbh. 

I also watched Little Ashes, I FRL WAS SCREAMING. Robert Pattinson looked so goofy but so good 😭I actually didn’t expect it to be a queer film, but I wasn’t disappointed. However the ending made me angry and sad, WHY CANT THEY EVER HAVE A NICE/GOOD ENDING SOOB. SALVADOORRR 😭. I get it was trying to be realistic due to the time period it was set in, but GRrrr it really got me biting my nails. 

I find it funny how 2008-9 period of Robert Pattinson films n shows made him look so fruity, I love his characters goofy man. 

My plans for tomorrow; NONE!! Though I do want to watch Ruby Sparks and Good Time tomorrow, if I have the energy lol.

Anywaysss see yaaa here’s a pic of Robert Pat looking breedable